Sweet dreams

I think of all people whom I know, I think I am glad to say that I myself am one of the strongest people I know... I am strong physically, mentally and emotionally. All I needed is to cry my lungs out after a torturous night of non-stop thinking and being all emotional...and I’ll wake up all refreshed, just like a new life being bestowed upon me! That’s one thing I am always  thankful about... that I could do that easily...not one that could be done by just anybody. Guess in some ways, I’m great too huh..

But oh well, I just gotta stay strong... if I don’t, all of us, everything and we, gonna crumble together.. I know there’s always hope...because I have faith....

After all the mixed feelings and ecstatic excitement from the recent election, I guess it’s time to get a good sleep... so, good night and sweet dreams folks :D

Back to reality

Just got back from family trip.. It was a really wonderful one. Rarely get to go on a holiday with my family and I am glad that the old folks enjoyed themselves a lot :D

But oh well, guess it's time to go back and face the reality... work and unnecessary stress. First question/ comments from her was "How is he when he was there? ..... Why? ....wanna go see doctor? .... when? .....etc. etc.". Fucking annoying.

Just fucking leave me alone laaaaaaaaaaaaa..........!

Fuckkkk

It's so fucking annoying when people just walk up to you and ask if this person has gone to do this thing or why hasn't this person gone to do that thing or like just 2 minutes ago asking if this person has left and did this person go get that thing done, etc. etc. etc. etc.?

OHMAIGOSHHHH just fucking leave my life alone!!!! FUCKING ANNOYINGGGG!!!!

If you have anything to ask or say, just fucking go ask that person directly! Stop putting my life in between all this shitty things... One day I'm sure I'm gonna explode and won't give two fucks anymore and when that happens, things are gonna be ugly I swear.

It

My life has always been so colourful and dandy until a certain someone ("it") just decides to screw my life with its beliefs that its philosophy of life is the way of life. Problem is, its philosophy of life is not mainly intended for me but it is intended to be imposed on someone else... Now the bigger problem is, it is always using me to convey these philosophies to the intended user and putting so much pressure and stress on me..! Now you might ask why it doesn't just share her philosophies with the end user but always have to go through me? Well, maybe I'm just too nice I guess :X

I've always been a good listener and a yes-girl when I'm around it because as a sign of respect, I wouldn't want to hurt it's feelings to tell it that its philosophies and advices about how we should live our lives suck... but respect is respect, and so I bear with it... It is not all sucky I gotta admit, but the way it lives its life is very different from mine and the people around me, but it still thinks that its way is the ultimate way to go.

But lately, I've just given up on being the nice person anymore. It's been so torturing to be stuck in the middle trying to play so many parts when in actual fact, this shouldn't be my role at all.

It is extremely annoying, yes. So much so that one day I might just scream into it's face once and for all and ask it to please just leave my life alone.

Chaooocibaiiii.......................

Family trip to Australia

Yeeeapppppp feeling damn excited for my upcoming family trip to Australia! Rarely get to do this kinda family trip and it's gonna be our first ever family trip to a western country! Being the cinna them, hopefully my parents can adapt to the culture there la... :/ It's gonna be a 2 weeks long trip! In between, I slotted in a 4-days road trip (from Melbourne to Sydney) in a motorhome!!!

Thisssss....... a motorhome/ RV!!!

Yesss...! We're gonna travel, eat, shit and sleep in this!! It's a first for all of us so I'm actually super excited about it! The thought of having to drive this huge thing is a bit scary but I'm sure when the time comes, everythings gonna be fine... :X I hope..... Hahaha!

Just trying to do my best to provide whatever I could to my parents while they're still around :/ Letting them experience a once in a lifetime road trip like this has always been my dream.... Well, recently, there has been so many deaths of people I know... and each time, you see people burning "money" to the dead... just makes me ponder more on giving the old folks more now that they're alive, don't wait till they're gone before you give them lotsa "money"... no point right. So..... please, do your best to give whatever you could to your old folks! <3

PS: I'm hoping that I'll be able to find a time to write about my Japan trip... before the memories start to fade wtf. Aging problem zzzz

Perfection at its best!

Been listening to Ed Sheeren Perfect song over and over again...even before everyone started sharing it on Facebook. Such beautiful and emotional song..

All Souls Day 2017

If only my grandma is around right now...... I'd definitely always run to her and hug her and share with her all my pain and sorrows... Miss her so damn much ='(

I dreamt of her a couple of times since she passed away in 2008. All of the dreams felt so real... in almost all my dreams, I would tear as I got so happy that I could see her again.... alive and standing there in front of me. Each time I woke up, I would have mixed feelings - happy that I got to see her in my dream and sad that it was only a dream :'(

Life sucks....... but you gotta live with it.

So people, please spend more quality time with your parents while you can now because you'll never  know, the next time you ever visit them, it might be at their grave.