Stay strong

Stay strong.... it’s the advice I get the most lately. However strong one person can be, they’ll eventually break down after all the never ending lies and hurt one has to go through...

Let’s see how strong this ironlady can be...

“Fight till the very end” is the goal...

I

...am at the verge of giving up.

Effort

"Put in the effort or someone else will" - Unknown.

So true, applies in every aspect of our lives. In whatever you do, in whatever situation, with whomever and whenever. Everything requires effort. If you don't put in some effort, sooner or later, someone else will...

Morons

Sometimes I wonder how come people who are considered smart can ask/ make stupid and fucking idiotic questions/ remarks! Damn annoying! C'mon laaa... these people are old and supposedly wise enough to know how to process the thoughts in their head before saying or asking stupid things and make them look like some fuking idiotic morons. You have your problems, go approach the person and ask/ talk to them... don't always fucking come to me or other people and ask me EVERY SINGLE TIME! I'm not God laaa for goodness sake.... you come to me/ us won't make any difference! You guys are treating me like I'm a God or a fucking GPS tracker... like as if I know every fucking thing! And while I'm still feeling so fucking annoyed with all these people stupidity, true enough you proved it right by just coming to me AGAINNNNNN!!!!!!!!! Chao ma haiiii ci bai larrrr! You wanna know how stupid you sound sometimes?

1. "The medicine that the doctor give how come not enough for 1 month? Isn't it supposed to be for 1 month? How come less 1-2 days meds? Or not you go earlier 1 day for the follow up la and ask for meds..." --- C'mon laaaa.... less 1 day meds what difference does it make? 29 days worth of meds also don't make a difference, that 1 day will make a difference? Just because one episode happened, and that immediately triggered them to come out with some "genius" thoughts of theirs.

2. "Must be drink a lot of alcohol... cannot drink so much one, tell you don't want to listen. You're just hurting your own body.... bla bla bla bla bla bla..". 5 minutes later... "Sure he drink a lot of alcohol one.."... "Does he still drink a lot of alcohol?", she asked. "No....", the reply she get. 3 minutes later... "I think he still drinks...". Then why even fucking bother asking if your assumptions are already bloody hardcoded in your fucking mindset...!

3. "I think his sleeping time all upside down already... must get him to adjust back bla bla bla bla..". Ehhh just because that 1 day he slept through the whole afternoon, then whoahhh immediately concluded that his sleeping time all upside down. Fuck you laaa cibai!

4. During one of those episodes... "He must start to exercise....". Hello? Then every time before this that swimming sessions are considered what? Synchronised dancing in the pool? That's not exercise then what?

SOooooooooooooooooooooooo many other idiotic things/ questions they said/ asked I don't even bother typing it out... because that will take days to even complete it.

These fucking morons... every time something happened, they will panic and start to think of so many creative things...and coming up with their own assumptions and conclusions. You people are the cause of everything that has happened and now you people are trying to find people to put the blame on... put the blame on everybody except for yourself. So u can go fuck yourself...!

Gold Coast Marathon 2018

In just about 1.5 weeks more, I'll be running at the Gold Coast Marathon!! OMG I'm so excited! I've been training regularly but the distance just isn't enough coz always lack of time T__T I need to at least have a few 21km training and if possible, I wanna do a 25-28km final training. Let's see if I can do it this weekend..! It'll be the last weekend before I fly off to Australia already... super nervous yet super exciting!

This will be my 4th full marathon so far and I heard that it has the most even surface for a marathon so achieving a really good timing means a lot to me!

Needs lotsa motivation for the next 1.5 weeks for proper training!

Good Luck to me!!!

End

Sometimes, we don't wan't certain things to end... but at times like this, I always ask myself when will all this end? I can't wait for it to end... I've almost forgotten how "normal" feels like anymore. Nothing is "normal" anymore. Changes there are, abundant... and I guess we just gotta learn to adapt to it. I am learning to adapt and will do whatever it takes to bring back things to normal.. It'll not take weeks or months, it'll take years. Years.... By then, who knows how old everyone's gonna be... but what choices do we have? Like I said, just learn to adapt and take things slowly... and hopefully, one day, we can all achieve the big dream - of being normal again... when all of the current "issues" go off, if ever it goes off it is...

Patience. Patience. Patience.

I pray that it will happen sooner... I know, accumulation of mental stress over the years can't be deleted just overnight. It'll take the equal number of years to get rid of it.... but still, being positive about every negative things helps me to stay alive so far. So stay optimistic it is!

Story of a boy

Story of a young boy.....

...who was a happy kid, just like any other kids. Smart, bright and intellectually gifted. But as years passed, circumstances around him prevented him from achieving the one goal in his life - that is to reach for the stars. The once happy kid slowly lose all hope and faith and eventually, when constant sadness conquer his feelings, then depression strikes... But the story doesn't end here, because this boy here is wise - he will pick himself up and will reach for the stars one day. We all know he will... because he deserves it.

...story to be continued... when the time comes.