Long gone are the days filled with joy and laughter of the Snowman

Dear snowman,

You know you belong there and you are more useful than how others see you. I just wanna let you know that no matter what anyone says to you, or try to bring you down, you should stay strong and hold on to your dreams. I know how it will be when you leave this place, how I will feel, but I know I can live on... it will suck badly but all I want is for you to chase your dreams and grab every opportunities that come your way.

Many people asked me the exact same question when I told them of your plan - "Then how about you?" they asked.

I answered the exact same thing to everybody, "I'll stay on and life goes on as usual...and for him, he'll do the things he's ever wanted to do in his life but never had the chance to"

"Do you think it will work?", some proceeded with this question.

"We'll try", I answered.

Few months back, I got into a conversation with mum on this.

Mum asked "You're not afraid that he'd change?"

"I trust him", I replied.

Mum and I never really spoken about our problems to each other ever since many years back. I still remember very clearly that we'd always lie on bed at night and talked for hours before both of us dozed off...like almost every night. I can't remember when this stopped but I kinda miss doing that sometimes. I could talk about anything in the world with her and she would also do that.

After so many years, one day, I took the courage to speak to her and tell her my thoughts once I got into a new relationship with the snowman, just like how I used to tell her stuff. She listened. And nodded. She respects my decisions, then and now.

Telling her "I trust him" in that very exact words...it puts so much weight to the sentence that every time if anything happens, I want to remind everybody including my parents and friends and snowman that I really trust him in every way possible. Be it in work stuff or relationship. I believe in him.

Snowman, if you want to know, you've changed my life entirely and I am so ever grateful. I might not be capable of doing the same but what I can do is to just love you unconditionally and by giving you all my support on everything you choose to do.

So please remember, no one understands you better than yourself. Be selfish sometimes and do what you want now, no longer what you should.

Loving you as always,
Me