24/09

Happy Birthday Ah Ma =(
If you're still around, maybe I can be with you and tell you what Im feeling now. Tho we spoke to each other in hokkien and I know I suck at that, but you were so understanding and always support me no matter what...which is why I can talk to you whenever I want to. But now that you're no longer around, I just wanna tell the whole world that I miss u madly, and I miss talking to you when I have no one to talk to... =(

If you're watching from up there, please pray that everything will be fine because I just screwed up something and I hate myself so much for being extremely stupid sometimes. I should be happy but I'm not. I should be all relieved but I'm not either. FML or what? I just wanna hug you and cry =(
Happy Birthday..

Imma emohead #3

I've been trying so hard but I still can't get used to it. I just hate shit like that. It's not me! It's not my thing! It's just not right anymore! It's fuking making me insane!

Imma emohead #2

I've been wondering...am I thinking too much? Is it me?
It's so so hard for me...
I never thought that it'll be this bad that I can't actually handle myself and control my emotions. Things are changing....

Imma emohead

I thought I was supposed to be happy now after everything...but no, things are not going well as how I expected it to be. It's definitely not easy for me as I'm so not used to it. But I'm willing to hold on and fight for it, because of just one reason...

Hillarious!

LOL put this up here for self-entertainment purpose =\

Well, such is life. Either you live with it or you'll have to suffer.

If I have a time machine....

.................... I will fucking turn back the time to year 1986! Do all the shits and never regret it!

Looked into the mirror and thought to myself, 'So what if you have the face when your brain is the size of a peanut?'. Seriously, I hate this. If I have a stupid look and I AM stupid I don't really care. What I care most is I'm not smart when people think I am. In fact, not smart is not the correct word.

I am stupid, full stop.

If I'm good at something, I'll admit that I'm good. But if I'm not and I said I'm not, then I AM NOT! Sighh.. I hate dissapointment and I never liked to dissapoint anyone. So tell me what I should do =\