See you again

Furious 7, by far one of the best series from the Fast & Furious franchise. Of course majority of the points come from the super emotional tribute to Paul Walker. That part was the saddest part of all :'(
 
Although I'm not an avid fan of Fast & Furious, but I do watch quite a few of them, missing only 2 series. Also, I'm not really a big fan of Paul Walker himself, but somehow, watching movies that stretch for over more than 10 years gives you some sense of special attachment to the characters. Not sure how to describe it but it just makes me feel really sad when I heard about his death. The feeling got worse after watching the final scene of Fast & Furious 7, seeing how all the characters age slowly... You can really feel the "family" bond there, whether it is in the movie or real life. The tribute is just so sad :'(

The video below is the clearest and unblocked (yet) version so far I managed to find from youtube :/

 

Paul Walker tribute, Fast & Furious 7

 



So sad :'(((((
Life is really short, don't take it for granted.

What will it be like?

20 March 2015 - The day that changed everything...

Day 7 of living with Tigger

As the day draws closer, I am getting more and more depressed :'(

Day 3 of living with Tigger

I guess sometimes it's really important to know whats important in life. No matter how much you gave in, how much effort you put into doing/ giving something, sometimes it just doesn't matter. As usual, such is life. Never beautiful or goes as how you wish it would be all the time...

Day 1 of living with Tigger

Feeling all shitty today. Didn't have the mood to do anything... Not easy to let go things back in Msia so easily maybe. Can't share things with my partner-in-crime Jazlee anymore, sleeping and waking up alone is a phobia all over again, etc. Although it's enjoyable over here with the free breakfast, lunch, tea break and dinner here, and there's also swimming pool and gym for us to use anytime of the day and being treated like kings and queen, but somehow, deep inside, I miss being home :( for some reason. I dunno why.

Beautiful

Listening to a very emotional song while studying for exam. Beautiful song plus a torturing revision to do equals to a very torturous emotional syndrome.

"In a minute I'm needing to hold her
In an hour I'm cold, cold as stone
When she leaves it gets harder and
Harder to face life alone
Now my dreams are filled with times when we're together
Guess what I need from her is forever love"

='(

24/09

Happy Birthday Ah Ma =(
If you're still around, maybe I can be with you and tell you what Im feeling now. Tho we spoke to each other in hokkien and I know I suck at that, but you were so understanding and always support me no matter what...which is why I can talk to you whenever I want to. But now that you're no longer around, I just wanna tell the whole world that I miss u madly, and I miss talking to you when I have no one to talk to... =(

If you're watching from up there, please pray that everything will be fine because I just screwed up something and I hate myself so much for being extremely stupid sometimes. I should be happy but I'm not. I should be all relieved but I'm not either. FML or what? I just wanna hug you and cry =(
Happy Birthday..

Imma emohead #3

I've been trying so hard but I still can't get used to it. I just hate shit like that. It's not me! It's not my thing! It's just not right anymore! It's fuking making me insane!

Imma emohead #2

I've been wondering...am I thinking too much? Is it me?
It's so so hard for me...
I never thought that it'll be this bad that I can't actually handle myself and control my emotions. Things are changing....

Imma emohead

I thought I was supposed to be happy now after everything...but no, things are not going well as how I expected it to be. It's definitely not easy for me as I'm so not used to it. But I'm willing to hold on and fight for it, because of just one reason...

Drama Queen

My life is so full of drama I can't even live in peace!! Please leave me aloneee already please oh shits! I'm really tired of all the things that have been happening lately and since the past few months. Crap shitt!!

I'm super emo now I wanna go to bed!!

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I wanna get this dress!!!!!

So niceee!! It comes with the belt! And it's (only) RM45!!

How to reduce emoness? You shop!! Or window shop!!
Whether you'll buy anything or not, you just try on all the nice clothes! =\

I will always remember....

Was looking back at grandma's pics and vids. I miss her so damn much.
She was the best mum and grandma ever.
She loved me alot and she was so proud to tell everyone that Im her granddaughter.
:'(
Too bad I never had the chance to tell her how much I loved her because she just left us like that....there were no preparations for us at all.
Miss you aloooot!

Dearest grandma & I

Part of my life :)

I can still remember....that she'd sit together with me and we'll do colouring,

I can still remember...that she was the one that made my bantal busuk pillow case, which I'm still using it now,

I can still remember very clearly...that she'd walk so fast during pasar malam that we couldn't even catch up,

I can also remember...that whenever dad caned us, she'd come to push dad away and 'shield' us,

I can still remember....that her home calender would always be one day faster because she just can't wait to tear that away,

I can still remember...the feeling when she held my hand and brought me to the sundry shop,

I can still remember...that she loved planting so much that she'll scold us for plucking her bunga siantan,

I can still remember...that she loved buying things/groceries in bulk,

I can still remember....that she loved to boil the fishball soup which I love it so much,

I can still remember....that she loved to tie so many plaits on my hair and make me look pretty,

I can still remember...that she'd laugh so hard when we crack some stupid jokes, her laughter were so addictive you wouldn't stop laughing yourself,

I can still remember....the look on her face when we bought her favourite food,

I can still remember....that my grandma was very well known for keeping her groceries until it expires and still keeping it,

I can still remember...that she got sick so often and the amount of medicine that she had to take everyday, that caused her hearing problem,

I can still remember...that she'd always be awake at 6am everyday without an alarm clock without failure...

...and the last day she did that was on 27 March 2008.

I can remember that I promise myself not to forget all of this when I stare at her, lying in the coffin. I love you alot!

Appreciate your loved ones.

I'll pray for ajji, Puff :)

Don be lazy!

Im stooopid and i aint smart!!
Sigghhh~!!!!
Living in this world is soo stressful!

-incomplete-

Wake up girl!

Looking at others, I feel stupid. Sigh...
Some people can be so smart and capable of doing anything...
Was home whole day doing nothing but facebook-ing and cleaning my room... Then I went through certain people's blogs and profiles, I thought to myself how and when can I have those achievements... Sighh~~
I've always known my own capability and I know I can do much more than this...
So yeah, I gotta start setting my dreams and goals!!
Now what's left is to consider between a stable job with an average income or a more challenging job that gives a better quality of life :\

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Anyway, shopping can really make an emo girl happy.

Mixed feelings :\

To be able to control oneself is very important.
It's hard I know, but yeah, still gotta do it for everyone's benefit :)
But no matter what, you know what I'm thinking about... always ;)

Solo by Iyaz ;)

Was home the whole day doing nothing -__-"
5 emo songs were on loop for one whole day wtf...
Sighh made me even more emo now :(
I wan to go for a trip...a trip to anywhere as long as I can get out from Malacca for at least 3 days and I don't feel like working!!

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Ahh i like my sis's laptop's webcam

Another boring post

What an emo day today!! I've never used to be an emo person you know... Just recently there were so many things that happened and its actually killing me!

If my PC hdd dont work, I seriously will need to kill myself! My ext hdd need to be formatted before I could use it...but if I were to format it, my data will be destroyed!!!! T_T
I have yet to test my PC hdd... Please pray that it'll work! Pleaseeeee!!

And I've just received an sms from someone. It makes me wonder if I ruining someone's life by being so cruel... That sms managed to make me feel so down and I actually teared for no reason.

I just wanna get back to my happy life! I'm a working person now... I need to worry about my career, money, parents, and my life. I want everything to be sure then I can live peacefully...

Emo

Something's just not right with me... I do not why. Or maybe it's not me? Something must be playing in my head now, hence the emo-ness.

I can't read ppl's mind, I do not know what the others around me are thinking, and it sucks badly coz I dont fking know if I'm doing the right thing. I need to plan for my future.

Emptiness

It has been a month or more since it happened. Honestly, I think I'm kinda happy with my life now. It might not be the same for the other person, but I hope that person will recover and begin a new journey.

I've been thinking of something lately...a thing that caused me to be damn emo sometimes. I don't really know if I'm doing the right thing or that something is real or whatsoever, it's just all over my mind.... Being all alone here now actually helps me to think logically and eventually, it'll help me to make the right decision...I hope.

Can't wait to get over this. It's killing me. But....getting over this quickly might not be a good idea either. It might be better if it remains this way.

F it! I'll just enjoy my 2 weeks training here!! :)

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I've made up my mind.. that is to let go everything, leave this place and go for a vacation! I need some space... I need air to breath...else I'm dying!