Stronger than ever

It's Viper Challenge 2015 tomorrow!!! Been waiting for this day to come like forever!! Been wanting to join Viper since 2 years ago but never had the chance. Finally took up the courage to register it this round. Unfortunately, I am not prepared for this :( It's been quite a pretty exhausting year and it is just a quarter through 2015!! I was so occupied with so damn many things that sleeping is a luxury thing to do wtf. Balancing between work, studies, house renovation, financial commitment, loved ones, friends and humans in general - NOT EASY! And moreover, satisfying the demands of everyone except for my own is another shitty thing... sigh. I wanna be left alone and chill my way to heaven *_*

Oh gosh I can't imagine how bad it's gonna be sooner when exam season is coming *gulps*

But anywayyyyy, I'm gonna go all in and get injured everywhere for the sake of releasing stress and feeling satisfied for doing crazy obstables wtf! Seriously, I believe that it is a good activity to reinstate the positivity in my meaningful and beautiful life *laughs like Dave the minion*

Here's to a wonderfool me and my wonderfool life!

 

Practice makes me-fat!

Thinking Out Loud

Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

Faaarrkkkk

Aarrrgrghhhhgghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






 

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONGGGG WITHHH MEEEEE???





 
I think I'm going crazy. Like for real. Is there even anything I could do to change things back to normal? What is wrong with me?!!

Time flies

Not trying to be a philosopher or anything like that, but I always agree that you gotta pick yourself up when you fall real hard. No matter who or what makes you fall and keep pushing you down, you gotta stand back up and move on. If you don't, you'd only stay stagnant like that forever, or at least until you decide one day that you want to move on.

Well, just thought of recording this down cause I am happy for a person who once came in my life.. I got to know that he has just gotten married and to be honest, I am really happy for him, happy that he chose to move on when the relationship didn't work out that time. Of course there were bad times and many acts that I hope didn't happen, but oh well, what can I say, we were all learning to grow up then. I am grateful that he picked himself up after a long time, as much as I feel so guilty then, we both moved on. And if it isn't because of that, he might not meet the love of his life right now. Really hope for a happy and a lifetime marriage for them :)

Congratulations to you!

So conclusion, don't be afraid to fall... because only with that you will know how to improve youself, get back up and be stronger than ever before.

Here's a random pic of me which I will somehow find some relevance to the post LOL! Like what the quote says, mou man tai is an attitude, it surely is... you just gotta believe in whatever you do.

Life at its simplicity

It's been a pretty bad and depressing time lately. Things that I thought would make my life filled with just fun and love actually did the opposite. Maybe I gotta accept the fact that not everyone can do that. Everyone has their own personal problem and just because you're always oh-so-cheerful does not mean that everyone around you must be the same.

Over the past 2 years, I've grown and changed so much. So much so that I noticed that I get annoyed so easily at every single little things lately. And my temper has changed in a bad way. No idea what is happening to me but I think my uncle was right. Many years ago when I was a little kid back in primary school, my uncle who loves to share his fortune-telling-sense-thingy (whatever fuck u call that) on people's lives said that I am a selfish person and would not be able to be with anyone cause of my attitude. It's true in a way I guess cause I noticed that too, lazy to explain about it but perhaps, I should live on my own and grow old on my own and die on my own. Less trouble to everyone out there. No one would be affected. Everyones happy. World peace.

Everyone has their own way of living their lives and I am in no position to tell anyone how to live theirs. But here's mine and at how I look at life or rather how I think it should be:
- Live and be contented with what you have because life is fucking short and if you do not make good use of it then you'd die not knowing what you have done in your life.
- Always look at the bright side of everything and anything that you come across. You can always look at things from 2 angles, good side or bad side. Be it diagnosed with a disease, being scolded by boss, failed in exam, etc. it does not hurt to look at it in a positive way. Everything happens for a reason right?
- I believe that you always have options in everything you do in life. You choose your life and you decide your life. If it is hardcoded in your head that your life is a shit hole and it will forever be, then you gotta do something about that!
- Live a simple life, make it less complicated. Of course not everything is NOT complicated but if it is possible, make it simple! For example, things as basic as answering to a question asked by your friend/ colleague. Sometimes not everything you gotta give a 3-side answers (positive, negative and neutral) if it's that straightforward or if it's just a normal chat. Try making things less complicated and you will see how it affects the way you look at things in life.
- Finally, love yourself and your life and at the same time, make good use of it. This is the least you could do I'd say. There's no point to cry in despair everyday saying how fucked up your life is, how lonely you get, how sucky your job is, etc. and yet you do nothing about it. Go fuking get a life then!

Of course, that being said, it is always easier said than done and honestly, I know I can't do all that but at least I tried and still trying to improve it. Afterall, it is your life. And life is like driving your car. You're the driver and you steer the wheel to direct where you wanna go. You can choose to go the smooth highway road or you can choose to go through the bumpy trunk road. At the end of the day, the destination is where you wanna be.

So, the final question to ask myself... Should I go back to being this?

 

The story of a Scorpio

I do not know why I can be so productive when I'm back here in Malacca..and hence, more posts ;)

 

 

Today, I just feel like talking about my 'partner in crime'. To be honest, I am really glad that I am working with the current company. I've learned so much and I've made so many genuine friends. These people are the people who would come to your aid when you need them most. Of course, not forgotten, my special colleague whom I'm really close with,

who came to me the moment she heard my house got broken into,

the person who offered to accompany me when I was in fear,

the person who spent every single meal with me,

the person who followed me shopping for clothes whenever I wanted to,

the person who didn't mind spending hours of grocery shopping with me,

the person who filled up my weekend with fun stuff,

the person who drove me around wherever I wanted to go,

the person who shared my favourite chawamushi and takoyaki with me,

the person who is the opposite of me who's so scared of cat and hates durian,

the person who would not fail to cheer me up when I was down,

the person who actually fed me with her mum's awesome homecooked food,

the person who never failed to be there for me,

and this person, is someone I am really thankful for having to know her in my life.

 

Dear partner in crime, you may not see this blog of mine, but I would like to record here in my diary that I appreciate the times we spent together. I may not have a fun university life before this and never had the chance of experiencing life of living with housemates and stuff like that, but for the past 2 years, your presence made my boring life a really special one...

 

thank you, You.



Forever Love

How this song reminds me of so much good memories...





Love, it has so many beautiful faces
Sharing lives and sharing days
My love it had so many empty spaces
I'm sharing a memory now
I hope that's how it stays

Now I'm deep inside love and still breathing
She is holding my heart in her hand
I'm the closest I've been to believing
This could be love forever

All throughout my life
The reasons I've demanded
But how can I reason
With the reason I'm a man

In a minute I'm needing to hold her
In an hour I'm cold, cold as stone
When she leaves it gets harder and harder
To face life alone

Now my dreams are filled
With times when we're together
Guess what I need from her
Is forever love

Now I feel forever love