It is true that people always say that the grass is always greener on the other side... you'll never know how it is until you're already on the other side. Weird how when I was younger, naive and when I was just like any other "ordinary" human, I would look at some people and thought to myself how I wish I can one day be just like them. And now that I am one of them, I wish so much how I can be just like the "ordinary" people I used to be. I guess this is just part and parcel of life huh? Not saying that I regret with the decisions I've made which lead me to where I am right here, right now, writing this post, but sometimes when you look back, you would realise and appreciate how much simpler and happier a life can be when you were younger...
My point is, no one knows what will happen if you were to make a decision. Along the way in your life, there are many decisions to be made. No matter what decision you chose at a certain point of your life, whether you made it hastily or after a thorough thought, there will always be consequences - it's a matter of good or bad consequences. If good things come out of it, then that's great. But if it's a bad one or rather not one you expected, then there's no time for self-pity because it was you who made the decision.
Like in my case, 2 years ago I resigned from the job I love and ended my career where I felt could lead me to something great. Along the way, I was "forced" to leave my job to come back Melaka... from countless people and on countless occasions. At the end of the day, when the time came, I had to make a decision... and I decided to resign and leave everything I've built over the years to come back to Melaka. Of course coming back here, the life isn't as exciting (for lack of word) as it was in KL. But there'll always be pros and cons. And I appreciate both.
But at the end of the day, no matter how much I miss my job and life in KL and no matter how much I hate my current job, I must ask myself this one question - who made that decision? Yes, I was "forced" to come back, but by force I meant I was pressured. No one pointed a gun to my head and forced me to make a decision. I myself made that decision although I did it unwillingly and of course, for every decision you make, there's a reason behind it. Undoubtedly, there'll be some cases where there really aren't any options for us to choose at all... those are forced decisions, whether we like it or not. But like I've said earlier, there'll always be a reason to justify for the actions or decisions which we made.. maybe we're just not aware of it. Therefore, there's really no time for self-pity and feel bitter about it. For me, all I have to do is to move on with my life and try to find the bit of happiness along the way.
Decisions made in the past, stays in the past. There's really no way we can turn back time to make amends. We can only pick ourselves up and move forward. For as long as we hate our lives cause of the decisions or actions you yourself or someone else made in the past and never be able to let that off, then there's no way to move on with life. No way. Because the past will keep coming back to haunt you.... unless, you forgive and forget and move on. No matter how much time or effort have been invested or wasted, you just gotta let go. Only then, you'll notice that your life becomes brighter...
Do not be shackled by the imaginary chains....
