Contradiction. Always.

Hah the root of the problem is obvious now.

One finally admitted!

One know the cause, but still finding reasons to push all the fault to someone else.

Another one, well, still couldn't find the right path.

Oh there's another one, just being hypocritical.

Being a pussy =D

Ohh drama of life...How I met your mother is so coool!! Will definitely watch till Season 4!

Awesome!

I need snow!

HaaaahhhH! It's hotttt here coz its heating up for no reason!!
Wanna know why???
Coz it's hh...hhoo....HOT!!




Ahhh classic H.O.T! (L) Kangtaa then. He's old now =\
He's the one in green jersey/green in jumpsuit. Isn't he cuuute??
Love this song... Used to be on loop for thousands of time!
I heart Korean..............songs!
2013!! Korean trip! =P

I suck - Part 2

I'm of no use and help when he's sad or upset or lost.. Not at all. I can't do anything to help make things better. Call me useless. Coz I think thats what I am and will always be. I care for him sincerely and genuinely, but I guess it's just not clear enough because I'm stupid and dumb that I suck at expressing myself through both words and actions. I suck or what? I sucked before this and I still suck now.

This year is supposed to be a good year for him as his love life is supposedly to be blooming, and his birthday was supposed to be a great one as it will be very different this year. But...no. Again, not at all. Me, being the useless self, didn't even do shit to make anything 'awesome' or a surprise or anything... Probably it's all because of timing. The timing for everything is just baaad. Or is it just me. I'm a failure, as always.

Proven again when he got his result, I got emo as well. But being emo what for? Even though I can't do much to change things or the result, I should at least make the situation better...rather than make it worse! Fuck me larrr! Fuck fuck fuck! I fucking hate myself!

The road is just not clear anymore. It got blurred by so many other factors. I can't see the road ahead anymore.

Sigh... Everything turned out to be so different from what I expected it to be. Hopefully things will be back to how it used to be very soon. I'm afraid I couldn't take it. I really really miss those times alot. Things really do change and it changes very drastically. It freaks me out. But anyway, I'm prepared for all these when I decided to step into this and yeah, these are part and parcel of life. If it could turn out like how we wanted it to be, I am willing to do anything for something.

I suck

Never blog for quite sometime coz got my time occupied with lotsa stuff... Having all the time now back home. There's nothing better than your own home =)

Meeting up with besties later... I think I need to, I've been in a depression mode and still am.

I think people really do need time to know a person well. And one thing that I'm really scared of is if one day, he'll just tell me "You're not the one". I can feel that. And I gotta admit, I'm not good...just not as good as I'm expected to be. I suck. Maybe I was born to swallow all that thing and later just shit it out like nothing happened. Maybe that's why I'm feeling so shitty. Before this was like that, and I thought it'd be different if I leave for KL. Everything will change and everything will be different. But no, I still suck and feel shitty all the time.

I really hate this coz Im feeling so fuking lost. And really scared.