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Such beautiful rendition by Charice...




Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

I am not happy

Not happy!!! :'(
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Why

Suddenly I feel like I'm a criminal... Everything I do, I gotta feel scared and feel guilty about it.. I dunno why I have to go through this. Just dont get it. Are my actions really wrong in every way??

Think I have bipolar disorder attack whenever I visit my blog. For a moment I'm all so emotional and you'll read an emo post... Then the next day I'm all so happy and excited and you'll get a happy post. Then back to a depressed post. It's a freaking cycle! Goshh this is scaryyy...

Sigh.... Time to sleep. Good night.

All Souls' Day

Last weekend, I went to pray my beloved grandma... It's been like 8 years now since she's gone. How fast time flies huh. Really miss her laughter and her love :'( She is the best grandmother one could ever ask for really!! I can bet you no other grandma can be as cool as her!

Well, sadness aside, here's a cute conversation I had with a 2-year-old little girl when we were at the cemetery:
Girl: What is that? *pointing at the statue of Our Lady"
Me: That's pai pai. (trying to talk baby language)
Girl: That one is Jesus loves me. (-_- baby talk failed!)
Me: Hahah ohh that's Jesus loves me!
Girl: No... Jesus loves me!
Me: Hahah yalarr Jesus loves me.
Girl: Nooo!! Meeee!! *pointing at herself*

Hahahaha omg kids these days are so smart!! She didn't allow Jesus to love me lol but I was just repeating what she said!

Kids... which they could stay like this and never grow up hahaha!

New Balance Home Run 2015 - Stupidity to the max!

Please remind me to boycott New Balance for any future running events!

It is so unprofessional of the organiser to postpone the event 3 WEEKS BEFORE the actual day citing HAZE as the reason WTF! The sky is blue as hell since last week and the organiser is so determined that it sent out official email (which went into my junk mail) 3 days ago citing the same reason for the postponement. God knows maybe the real reason for the determination to postpone the event is due to lack of response or they have not hit their target yet, as claimed by others. So so unprofessional!!

Shit overload

Exactly how I am feeling right now.. Sucky and shitty.

Why oh why do I always need to bother so much about how others would feel and neglect about what I want myself. Is it even the right thing to do?

Been asking myself so much about what is the purpose of life? Once read Stephen Hawking's philosophy about this. Gave a 10 seconds thought about it (that short because I hate to think) and realised that there isn't any purpose actually when God created us. But you gotta create the purpose yourself. Create the excitement you want. Create the circle of friends you desire. Create the life you imagine it to be. But to create these things, of course you gotta give and take certain things in life. I've done that but at times, I screwed up because people don't understand and appreciate the things you did or ought to do. And at the end of the day, I forego certain things because I cared for how other people think.

What about myself?

Vain

Im in love with my hair
<3_<3

Three leaf clover OST

One of my very first few favourite Korean songs when I started go all kpop crazy back in those days... Listening to this again now makes me go all emotional and teary ='(

 

Kim Sunghee's voice is just so beautiful gosh!!!
  
Romanised lyrics (for my own info ;p):
sumul chamgo mora naeshwigo
bogo shipeun ma-eum sam-kigo
tu son mo-adurin nae paraemdeul
tto bameul se-ugo
  
a-geul ssumyeo nal tageuchyodo
odil pwado nan honja-in gol
arajugil paran ki-darimdo hui-mihaechigo
    
arayo himdul gol pum ane turigi
cham iron saram gudae budamsurobjyo
   
usuyo apado kuman nohwajul-kkeyo
onjen-ka kudae na pilyohal ttae dwemyeon
gyote itkeyo
   
kudae obshi sal gol kuraetjyo
uri soro mollassossumyeon
chi-umyeonso kojil apumdo nan mollassul-tejyo
   
arayo sara-ngeun nae ttushi anin gol
hullil nunmulman-kum badul su omnun gol
I believe chogumman moduruta kalkkeyo
twidorasomyeon itaero jiwojil-kkabwa ichojilkkabwa
turobjyo
 
ajikkaji nan
tokhaji-neun mothan saramiyoso
useoyo apado kudaeyeoso dwingojyo
saranghan naldummankum nan haengbokhangojyo
kurum dwengojyo
itaero...

kurum dwengojyo

When She Loved Me by Sarah Mclachlan

New old song on the loop :)

  

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful

Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart

And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears

And when she was happy, so was I, when she loved me.

 

Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all

Just she and I together, like it was meant to be

And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her

And I knew that she loved me.

 

So the years went by, I stayed the same

But she began to drift away,

I was left alone

Still I waited for the day, when she’d say "I will always love you."

 

Lonely and forgotten, never thought she’d look my way,

And she smiled at me and held me, just like she used to do,

Like she loved me, when she loved me

 

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful,

Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart

When she loved me.

Malaysia radio station

I always listen to the radio in the morning while driving to work. Here are the radio stations I listen to everyday and the time spent on each station:
1. Hitz FM (10%)
2. Mix FM (25%)
3. Lite FM (50%)
4. Fly FM (5%)
5. MyFM (5%)
6. 988 FM (5%)

Seriously, I always always switch around the radio stations (thank you genius who created switch buttons on the steering wheel uresogenius wtf!) because these days, 90% of the time when I listen to the radio, all I hear is just advertisement! Almost all the radio stations are like that but Lite FM has lesser ads as compared to the rest. It is so annoying that sometimes I just switch off the radio after going through 2 to 3 cycles of switching the stations -_-

Just to share a real life example of how much time is spent on advertisement rather than playing songs! Everyday when I drive to work, it will take me about 30 to 45 minutes on average. In that duration, each of the radio stations played, on average, only 2 to 3 songs! Most of the times are just ads, ads, and more ads. Seriously, radio stations are meant for people to listen to songs not ads -_-

I spent majority of the time listening to Lite FM coz the songs they play are, well, classic songs. Slow and beautiful songs. Used to be a big fan of Hitz FM but after they change the morning crew to Ean and Jinnyboy, I stopped listening. Why? Because at times, they sound really lame -_- and the jokes are not funny anymore. And the songs are always so noisy -_-

Mix FM is not that bad actually. You can tell from the name, the songs they play are the combination of both old classics and the newer songs. I love it when they play the 90s music. Fly FM selection of songs are just so so. Sometimes they play nice songs, sometimes horrible. And the thing about Fly FM is that the quality of the sound/ station is somehow abit cacat. The musics are always a little rough and not as clear as the rest of the stations.

MyFM and 988 FM are chinese stations. Only when the 4 english radio stations are playing lousy/ no songs, will I then change to these 2 stations lol. Again, similar to the other stations, these 2 chinese stations air annoying ads like there's no tomorrow. I used to listen to MyFM everyday before this when I carpool with Jaz to work. I can tell you that they play only 2 songs in about 30 minutes duration. Seriously -_- But when they do play songs, the songs are kinda nice coz in the morning, they normally play the old, slow songs. When I say nice songs, it means the limited chinese songs that I'm familiar with lol.

Sorry for ranting on a Wednesday wtf. Anyway, here's a beautiful song I hear on the radio this morning...

Yea..scary still pic -_- but still, beautiful song.

The Idiot in my life

The current assignment I am doing right now is so lousy that it is demotivating me. Hence, the many blogposts (3? or 4? LOL) in the past 2 weeks. Well on the bright side, at least there's some time for me to spare and listen to beautiful songs and dream :P

 

My current company is actually a really nice place to work. I actually feel reluctant to leave, although I did say before that I will leave this company after working for about 3 years. And here I am, still working, after 3 years and 4 months lol. Maybe next time lar I'll list down the good stuff working here hehe..

 

Had department lunch today and also to celebrate the Idiot's farewell. Idiot has tendered her resignation in search for a higher paying salary job elsewhere and she'll be leaving us soon, like really soon T.T Reality will not kick in until you start planning for the farewell party and hearing the farewell speech lol. But anyway, it is always for the better I believe. People come and go in your life, you can only be grateful that you meet who you meet today.

 

This lady here is the one colleague who would go with the flow and do or say stupid things with me. And that's why we call each other Idiot haha! There were a few people who actually asked if we are sisters or some even mistaken us for the same person as they claimed that we look alike. We don't really look alike but we do have roughly the same height, same straight hair, same pretty face (LOL!!) and same gorgeous body (LOL!!2). She's also the one and only one who made me drink so much during the period working here in the company haha! WIthout her around now sure lesser happy hour sessions already T_T 

 

So....... to the Idiot Mic Lew who will never read this lol, I wish that you will stay idiotic forever hahaha! Kidding... Just hope that your new work place will be as awesome as the current one! All the best!

 

 

Idiot and I

See you again

Furious 7, by far one of the best series from the Fast & Furious franchise. Of course majority of the points come from the super emotional tribute to Paul Walker. That part was the saddest part of all :'(
 
Although I'm not an avid fan of Fast & Furious, but I do watch quite a few of them, missing only 2 series. Also, I'm not really a big fan of Paul Walker himself, but somehow, watching movies that stretch for over more than 10 years gives you some sense of special attachment to the characters. Not sure how to describe it but it just makes me feel really sad when I heard about his death. The feeling got worse after watching the final scene of Fast & Furious 7, seeing how all the characters age slowly... You can really feel the "family" bond there, whether it is in the movie or real life. The tribute is just so sad :'(

The video below is the clearest and unblocked (yet) version so far I managed to find from youtube :/

 

Paul Walker tribute, Fast & Furious 7

 



So sad :'(((((
Life is really short, don't take it for granted.

Have courage, and be kind

Watched Cinderella and fell in love with these 2 songs!
   



Strong by Sonna Rele

 

Lavender's Blue originally sang by Laura Wright

Ohhh how beautiful... *dancing in lalaland*

What will it be like?

20 March 2015 - The day that changed everything...

New house!

About 3 months more and my family can move to a bigger and more comfortable home weeeeeee!!

Actually to be honest, I have no idea on how come I never thought of buying a new house for them before this. It only hit me like the mid of last year when I suddenly got so into researching and surveying and comparing house prices on the internet and driving around Melaka tamans to search for houses for sale =__=

After all the pain and torturing research and meeting up with agents to view houses, we finally decided on one, which my parents fell in love with at first sight. So long story short, our new house is an old house kakaka so funny. No? =.=

We bought the house at a very cheap price (THANK YOUUUU) due to the freehold title and the location of the house - and I personally love the size of the house too coz its neither too huge nor its too small. Well, the price of the house is cheap but the renovation costs a bomb! :S The renovation costs as much as the price of the house =_=

Nevertheless, I think it is worth it! All my life, I have always wanted to provide the best for my family, especially my parents. My mum isn't young anymore, she's 60+ right now. Few years down the road, very soon, she'll turn 70. Whenever I think of that, it scares the hell outta me! Really! 70!! And in 10 years from that age, she'll be 80. That was the age of my grandma! So it really really got me to think that the time they (my parents) have in this world, while they're still strong, is kinda limited. Besides buying LED TV for them, or giving them ang pow during the festive seasons, there weren't really anything else great I did for them. I didn't and cannot afford to bring them travel overseas, I cannot afford to buy them a huge house with big compound nor can I afford to give them monthly allowance to spend. But what I can afford now is to get them a comfortable place to live in. From what I observed over the past few months since the house was bought, I know for sure that they love it... so much! That makes me really really happy although there were so much time and effort involved.

Just pray and hope that everything goes smoothly and I could then say I finally did something great for my parents :D

First and only oversea trip with the family.

Really hoping that I can bring them for a holiday at somewhere great, someday.

Stronger than ever

It's Viper Challenge 2015 tomorrow!!! Been waiting for this day to come like forever!! Been wanting to join Viper since 2 years ago but never had the chance. Finally took up the courage to register it this round. Unfortunately, I am not prepared for this :( It's been quite a pretty exhausting year and it is just a quarter through 2015!! I was so occupied with so damn many things that sleeping is a luxury thing to do wtf. Balancing between work, studies, house renovation, financial commitment, loved ones, friends and humans in general - NOT EASY! And moreover, satisfying the demands of everyone except for my own is another shitty thing... sigh. I wanna be left alone and chill my way to heaven *_*

Oh gosh I can't imagine how bad it's gonna be sooner when exam season is coming *gulps*

But anywayyyyy, I'm gonna go all in and get injured everywhere for the sake of releasing stress and feeling satisfied for doing crazy obstables wtf! Seriously, I believe that it is a good activity to reinstate the positivity in my meaningful and beautiful life *laughs like Dave the minion*

Here's to a wonderfool me and my wonderfool life!

 

Practice makes me-fat!

Thinking Out Loud

Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

Faaarrkkkk

Aarrrgrghhhhgghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






 

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONGGGG WITHHH MEEEEE???





 
I think I'm going crazy. Like for real. Is there even anything I could do to change things back to normal? What is wrong with me?!!

Time flies

Not trying to be a philosopher or anything like that, but I always agree that you gotta pick yourself up when you fall real hard. No matter who or what makes you fall and keep pushing you down, you gotta stand back up and move on. If you don't, you'd only stay stagnant like that forever, or at least until you decide one day that you want to move on.

Well, just thought of recording this down cause I am happy for a person who once came in my life.. I got to know that he has just gotten married and to be honest, I am really happy for him, happy that he chose to move on when the relationship didn't work out that time. Of course there were bad times and many acts that I hope didn't happen, but oh well, what can I say, we were all learning to grow up then. I am grateful that he picked himself up after a long time, as much as I feel so guilty then, we both moved on. And if it isn't because of that, he might not meet the love of his life right now. Really hope for a happy and a lifetime marriage for them :)

Congratulations to you!

So conclusion, don't be afraid to fall... because only with that you will know how to improve youself, get back up and be stronger than ever before.

Here's a random pic of me which I will somehow find some relevance to the post LOL! Like what the quote says, mou man tai is an attitude, it surely is... you just gotta believe in whatever you do.