Perfection at its best!

Been listening to Ed Sheeren Perfect song over and over again...even before everyone started sharing it on Facebook. Such beautiful and emotional song..

All Souls Day 2017

If only my grandma is around right now...... I'd definitely always run to her and hug her and share with her all my pain and sorrows... Miss her so damn much ='(

I dreamt of her a couple of times since she passed away in 2008. All of the dreams felt so real... in almost all my dreams, I would tear as I got so happy that I could see her again.... alive and standing there in front of me. Each time I woke up, I would have mixed feelings - happy that I got to see her in my dream and sad that it was only a dream :'(

Life sucks....... but you gotta live with it.

So people, please spend more quality time with your parents while you can now because you'll never  know, the next time you ever visit them, it might be at their grave.

Never gone

September 24th of every year used to be the day we always look forward to. It was my late grandmother's birthday. We never failed to celebrate for her, be it a simple occasion or a grand one. All we could do now is just to pray to her :'(

My grandma is the most amazing and wonderful woman one could ever ask for. She was a great wife, mother and grandmother. No one in this world, in my life, can ever replace this wonderful woman.

Happy Birthday Ah Mah! I pray and hope that wherever you are right now, you will always be happy... and that you know that all of us here miss you very much!

Eat grass

This is a latest pic of me... =_=

This month is a broke month... gotta eat grass already zzz...

Nice or not the cow? I used MsPaint to draw one lehh hahaha! So cute! Got mole lagi LOL!

Haihz.. So much expenses lately I think I'm really gonna eat grass for real soon -_- 

Just within 2 days, I spent about RM2k! Renewed my car insurance (thank GOD for NCD!), road tax and sent my car for service (which cost me RM600+ WTFFF!!)... damn bloody Honda, suck blood like mothertoootttttt! Daylight robbery mehh?! T_T They said my 2 front tyres botak already, so asked me if I wanna change to new ones, which would cost me extra RM200+ per tyre. Told them no, rotate the 2 back tyres to the front. Saved RM400+ there! Or else, I will kena RM1k just for servicing a Honda car W-T-F! For my insurance, I even reduced the sum insured for my windscreen and managed to save RM30 hahahaha!

I've not yet even counted in the money I had spent on the coming holiday trips.... and the additional RM60 which I have to top-up for my insurance policy every month starting from next month... FYI, my insurance installment is already costing me a bomb! 

Talking about insurance, I only took over to pay for my own insurance from my dad from last year onwards and I already felt like it is a big burden! My dad has been paying for all of our insurance since we were young and I can imagine his struggle every month back then T_T With his ikan bilis pay, he had to pay his own insurance and the 3 of our insurance too... Felt so horrible that I didn't take over to pay my own insurance after I started to work back then sighh... Even now he is still paying for my sis and bro's insurance... Sighhh super hopeless!!! Can't THEY at least help out to reduce my parents' burden?! ARGHHHH!

Yesterday, when our family insurance agent came to find us, of course he tried to get my dad to top-up a bit to increase God knows what other new product they are promoting now... Dad refused coz he said he is already paying a lot right now. Agent still tried to sell and push the product and mum told him straight "lei fong kor hei lar, hei ya yat mah lu zhan koh kor sei sap kao, din miong hei wan chun bo yi kor insurance?" 

It was in cantonese lar so I just quoted the exact things she said =__=  Dunno what it means ah? My cantonese pinyin so horrible meh? Lolol! Sendiri go figure it out lar haha!

But yalar.... in the end, the agent backed down and didn't push my dad further. The burden is just too much for my dad even though the agent asked my dad to only top up about RM70 per month. Secretly, I wished I could step in and told the agent to just proceed and I can pay for the top-up amount, or better, to pay whole of my dad's insurance.... but I can't =( 

My commitments are too high.... Sighh..

Before I left home, I was so determined to earn extra cash and told my mum to inform a family friend that I wanna take up the part-time accounting job (since they are looking for one) which would pay RM700 per month. But then later that night, mum told me that they already found someone else with lower pay T___T 

My RM700 gone T___T 

Whyyyyyy T_____T

Haihzz... gotta really quickly start my online business! Cash flow tight, plus so many people still owing me money never pay zzz...

But one thing for sure, I am gonna stay strong and keep fighting!

Oh btw, one way you can help me is by clicking/ checking out the advertisement anywhere around the blog that you find lol!
Better still, if you purchase anything from whatever that appears in the ad (since the ad appears based on your browsing history), and I can get some moooolah! Hahaha!
Terima kasih!

Little blue bird

The feeling I get these days...

Gone were those days where you could do anything you want, 

at anytime you want to, 

at anywhere you can be...

... without the need to consider anyone or anything else.

Well, probably as the age is catching up, you get more mature (not true actually, I still know many people from my generation who are damn childish :/ ) and you start thinking more maturely...I guess? Just like before you make any decisions, you would think about the person on your left, right, front, top, back, etc. Ya, always think about everyone else and at the end of the day, you would realise that you actually missed a lot of opportunities and things in life... and so, you give and take.

The problem is, it is very common for people to NOT notice what you have missed... but when it comes to the one time where you didn't want to miss the opportunity and decided to grab it, they would start to say things and make conclusions in their head, etc. But what about all the opportunities which you did not grab earlier on? Nope, no fuck was given. That's a fact of life.

The fact of life is people are selfish. In every aspect of life.

Been there, done that. 

At least a bird who's caged up doesn't need to stress about all these emotions thing. 

Sigh.

Check us out, okay?

Helloooo Friday!! Been kinda busy lately... actually.... I think I've said the same busy thing since forever hahah! But yalarr really busy larr lately! Busy training for my marathon and busy with a new project with my sister... heeee.....

Here it is!

Nice hor this logo/ name/ display pic? I created in less than 5 minutes using PowerPoint HAHAHAHA!

Don't be too surprised with the '.my', it is not like we bought a domain or something. We have only created a Facebook page with this name. The name "checkusout" was already taken, so we added the '.my' then baru can haha! 

So, wanna know what project it is? Even if you don't wanna know I will still tell blekkkk.... 

We are collecting old items and gonna sell it as pre-loved items and also gonna sell some brand new items! Gonna sell like reealllyyy cheap stuff from as low as RM1. Reason being, we have too much old stuff at home which we don't know what to do with them - if throw then it's very waste. If give away macam abit sayang. If donate, you dunno what they're gonna do with it. So decided to sell it at really cheap price to people who actually want or need them!

Dunno if it will work or not lar but then no harm trying coz it involves no cost to us other than our effort and time cost. So takperlaaaa lol... 

So, remember to support us once the page is launched ok?!

Run: Mybuddies Run 2017 review

Completed Mybuddies Run yesterday and boy I was so happy! I ran the half marathon category and guess what?! I won the 7th place in my category! Wooooooooots! Actually it was really beyond my expectation because I wasn't really prepared for this run. My last run was 3 weeks ago and since then, I was away for my birthday retreat for about 10 days :/ so over the duration, there was no training at all except for once very short one.

So after I got back from the holiday, I went to gym for 5 consecutive days before the run. But then due to the time constraint and laziness lol, I could only do 20-30 minutes on average on the treadmill and twice about 40 minutes. I thought that wouldn't be good enough because it is too close to the race day and it will only help a little in picking back up my stamina. But then I guess I was wrong haha! On the race day, I felt really good after the flag-off. And I felt good all the way to the finish line. But then hor, halfway through the run (about the 15km mark), I started to feel sleepy la wtf. Thanks to my bad habit of not being able to sleep the night before almost EVERY single run la wtfwtf! For this run, I felt really sleepy the night before and went to bed at 12.30am. And no surprise, I didn't get a single second of sleep and decided to just wake up at 4am to go get ready =_="

In every run, it is important to "feel good". If you don't feel that way, meaning it is not your day. You just gotta run and suffer all the way to the finish line. At least that is how it is for me lar I dunno about the rest of the runners. 

I think I did quite well lar yesterday. I stopped at 4 out of 6 water stations to rehydrate and didn't stop to walk at all. Was running the whole time nia heeee... Here's how I did and the result!

 My pace for every km

 The running route

Mybuddies run result

7th place out of 166 qualified runners

(Full result can be found here: https://results.sporthive.com/events/6303141485025986816

Here's my feedback on the run:
Run name: Merdeka MyBuddies Run 2017
Distance: 21km
Price: RM63
Venue: MAEPS, Serdang
Finisher tee: Yes

Route: Quite a number of uphills but bearable. Few crossroads with vehicles, but there were marshals/ polices to direct the traffic
Water station: 6 nos. (every 3km). Serves isotonic drinks and plain water
Other items: Fruits at one of the water stations. No power gel and sponge

Positive feedback:
1. The drinks served at the most of the water stations were ice cold...and that is really important for me! It really helps to boost my energy when I have cold drinks!
2. The crews/ volunteers were friendly and helpful. Thumbs up!
3. Good lucky draw prizes giveaway (even a car and motorbikes!) even though I didn't win anything lol.

Negative feedback:
1. Too crowded during the run. It was quite pack especially during the part where the 21km and 10km runners merge.
2. Long queue during medal collection - Not really a problem for me coz I completed the run quite early but it is a huge problem for those completed later. They had to queue under the hot sun to collect the medals for both the 21km and 5km category.
3. The t-shirt measurement chart during registration differs with what was published on the official website and with the actual t-shirt given. T-shirt is waty too big.
4. No crew to monitor the top 10 runners crossing the finish line. Made me miss the chance of getting onto the stage to collect my prize T__T
5. Sound system during the whole event day was lousy. Couldn't hear what the emcee said clearly even during the lucky draw.

Will I join this run again in the future? For now, it might be a no. Let's wait for next year to see if it can impress me enough to register again or not hahah!

Osaka Marathon 2017!!!

So awhile ago, I tried my luck for the Osaka Marathon 2017 ballot... you know, just tryyyy nie lar since I know it is quite unlikely to get it because I've tried balloting for Tokyo Marathon twice before and failed both times T.T

This round, when I received an email with the Osaka Marathon subject title, my heart was beating so damn fast I think I almost died! Scary as hell! Even before opening the email to read hahah! The feeling is exactly like the scary feeling you have seconds before your exam result is being revealed LOL! And soooooo, since I can write a post just for this, meaning I get to join Osaka Marathon!!!! Woooooooooooottttttssssssssssssss yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!! Omg the amount of excitement that went through me at the point of time when I read the email content, was ecstatic!

Getting to run in one of the bigger marathon events has always been my dream! Now this will be the first big event ever for me! I hope there's more coming soon hehehe... Of course there's always price to pay for everything la kan? I literally mean price price. The cost to join big events like this is 5 (FIVE) times more than the average runs I joined, and I only mean the registration costs :/ For this Osaka Marathon, the registration fee itself costs almost RM600 after conversion. Madness right?!! =_= But watodo, once in a lifetime kinda thing so mati-mati also I must go hahaha! 

If you think the registration fee is insane, wait till you see the plane ticket -_-

Click pic to enlarge....to see the damn expensive ticket

A one-way ticket back from Japan costs about JPY245,000 (equivalent to almost RM10,000!) and this is the price for just economy seat (and one-way)! Madness! Of course I can opt to fly with Airasia or MAS where both cost about RM3,000 for 2-ways ticket la but then, you wanna experience Japan Airline flight mahh when you're in Japan -_-" 

Conclusion, will end up taking AA or MAS for sure haha! So excitement aside, it is time to plan for the whole Japan trip - How many days to go? Which area to cover? How long is needed to cover each area? Tokyo or no Tokyo? Day trip to some places or should put up a night? USJ or Disneyland (hehehe)? OMG so much research to do! But it's okaylar, it's for an exciting course so no complaints hahah!

Time for some intensive training! 

Random rant - Aug 2017

Mum's having really bad backache since a few days ago... and it got worse yesterday sigh... Sometimes I get really worried when I think of all the 'what ifs'. Scary thoughts. Scary as fuck. Mum had a mild stroke many years back and since then, she never gain back her strength like before. Then she had pains on her shoulder and now back pain. For a woman her age (she's 68 years old btw), she is not strong anymore. She and my dad both are not strong anymore. And that scares the shit outta me whenever I think of 'what if they are no longer around?'...

And that is why I would wanna spend as much time as possible with them whenever I can... On weekdays, I get to only spend less than an hour a day IF I go back home for lunch. Everyday after work and for the rest of the days, I don't see them anymore. And the best day would be on every Wednesday where I make the point to have a family day with them... that's about it except occasionally if there's an event. It's so sad that even when we live so near, but going back to my own home sometimes seems like_________ .....not gonna say anything, go figure out yourself...

I only have one body and that's so much I could do. But at least I put in effort to make everyone happy and play my role as I should, but on the other hand, does everyone play the roles as they should? Once, I was told that we each have to put in equal time and effort to achieve the things you, as a team, wanna achieve, otherwise, it is not fair for everyone. Honestly, I think I've put in so much more effort and TIME as I should...and that is for fuking sure. So, if anyone cannot put in the equal amount of time and effort, I will not force you people to... but just, please just don't stop me from doing my part! You can force or indirectly put pressure on me to do anything, I'll gladly do it if it is within my means and if it is part of my role to do it, but then, like I said and I am gonna repeat, if you don't wanna play your part as you should, then please please don't stop me from playing my part. Thank you very much.

Everyone asks me why I always take so long to reply to their messages... honestly, I AM NOT A FUKING ROBOT! Seriously don't expect me to reply your messages whenever you feel like because I have so many shit going on daily and I seriously don't have time to reply or worse, chat! Who still does that lar..... chatting -__- That's teenagers' life. I am way out of that generation now. But I am thankful that my friends are forever so understanding hahahaha! They know my pattern so if it is really urgent, they would PM or call me.. so understanding lol.

Enough for today... the more I type, the angrier I get wtf. Will continue my next rant when I'm feeling unhappy again.......

Peak period is finally over!

The peak period is finallyyyyyyy over! Been working so hard for the past 1 month and now I just feel like going for a holiday and do nothing! In fact, I am going for a holiday in a few days time haha! Time to relax a bit :D

Now that I have more time to breathe, I really gotta start thinking what I should do to earn extra side income lol! Every month when salary comes in, within a few minutes, half of it will be gone T_T Can't even have savings...how am I supposed to save enough to bring my parents for a Europe trip larr -_- Not sustainable at all if it continues to be like this...

So, like I said before in my earlier post, my idea on online boutique is back! Imma really start doing something about that! The 2 main problems now are: (1) to find for suppliers; (2) to stand out from the massive amount of other online boutiques. How can we be different? Been having these thoughts for the longest of time and until today, still no concrete ideas sigh. Hopefully during this holiday break, I can get some inspiration and....... make it happen soon! Fingers and toes crossed!

Another to-do thing would be to tryyy to get an audit licence wuahah! Not easy and not something I like to do but then, heyyy it gives good income. Why not?

My idea of running to earn money is a bit impossible though (LOL!) because I ain't gonna be as good as those professional runners hahah! Though I must say I am still better than a lot of other people and am definitely in the slightly-above-average category...but still, not good enough to win the usual top 3 spots which actually gives out cash prizes haha! But passion is still passion, can't change it. Win anything or not, it is what I love to do and I am just thankful for those who are always there for me to support me..!

Can't remember whatelse I proposed before this (lazy to check back lol)... just remember I had the intention to be Uber driver (still do actually HAHA!) and to do part-time account work.. Well, I hope at least ONE of it will come true la hahah!

Work hard to play hard! Heeeee....

Running passion

Well hellooooooo myself! It's been a crazy ride for me for the past months... so much things have been happening and I am gonna go crazy very soon =\

But well, to keep myself alive, all I gotta do is to stay strong and stay positive! As always!

I've been registering lotsa half marathon this year huehuehuehue... One of the few things which I could do to keep my life happening and meaningful wtf. Otherwise, life is so dull. Running keeps my spirit up and that's a good thing!

So, I have a relay run coming up in June this year. This will be the 5th relay run series I joined since my running kakis (5 in a team) and I joined it back in 2013! I'm so looking forward for this run because it is about sprinting or at least run as fast as possible for about 3.25 km and that's about it! It is tiring as hell but it is fun!

Our timing and running position for the PAR relay runs from year 2013 to year 2016. Ponteng year 2014's run because everyone was busy/ lazy that time hahah...

My aim for the relay run this year will be to complete it in 17 mins for my individual timing! All I have to do now is to train my stamina for sprinting... and I have about a month time left for that :/ Wish me best of luck! 

Apart from this relay run, I have 3 upcoming half marathons in July, August and September respectively! There are 2 other HM which I have yet to register but I'll consider that when the registration is open :) 

If you ask me why I register for so many runs, here's why:

• To motivate myself to exercise. If I don't register for runs, I will never get my ass off the house to exercise. I'm lazy like that -_-
• To lose some fats... yea, my tummy and waistline are expanding @#$%^&*
• To achieve a sub 2 in a Half Marathon!! (Sub 2 means to complete a run within 2 hours time). My best record so far is 2:15 so improving that 15 mins isn't gonna be easy but I will try =D
• To aim for top 10 position in a run event! Sounds impossible but like what I told my running kakis, always be optimistic and have faith. Without those 2 things set in your head, you will never get to where you wanna be. And they told me that they like my confidence LOL!
• Hoping that I can win the prize money wuahahah! Not much also never mind, as long as can win to cover the registration fee can already LOL!
• Like I said earlier on in my post, running keeps my spirit up. And to live a life without a purpose is a sad thing. So this is my purpose. Well, one of them.

Sooooo, that's all I guess! Please pray hard that I don't turn lazy for the coming months! Heeeee!

Time bomb

It's just a matter of time if things don't change... trust me. It's just gonna get worse... 

Brain freeze

Actually I have so much in my mind but I just do not know how to convey it.. I've typed and re-typed facebook status and blog posts but ended up not posting any... too much is going on in my head, too much stuff to process, too much thoughts to be analysed, too many consequences to be considered,  too many decisions to be made...

Well, as usual, it always boils down to yourself to make the decisions. Hell yea this is life.

Motivation 101



Poor blog, been abandoned for such a long time... :/

 

Well, it has been pretty hectic lately even though sometimes I seriously have no idea what I have been doing.. time goes by just like that.. Sighh...

 

Anyway, it is year 2017 now!!! And it is end of February already! How fast huh.. Felt like new year eve was just last night wtf!

 

Year after year, the worries I always have with me are my parents and another one better left untold. Well, my mum isn't young anymore, she's turning 68 this year! I guess I've said this many times but I will say it again... that I am really afraid of losing them T_T Feel like tearing just by typing this right now wtff...

 

What's even more sad was when this one day when I had a conversation with mum, and she said this "I never dreamt of visiting/ travelling to western countries ("European" countries as what she always refer to all western countries lol) because I know we cannot afford it". Ouch... Immediately I felt so sad... so so sad...because I put myself in their position, knowing that in the limited lifetime that you have right now, you can never travel to those places T_T Not only that, after I got back from the Europe trip, I told mum that I will bring them to Spain in year 2026 (when the Sangrada Familia would've been completed by then)... to which she jokingly replied "waa 9 more years, don't know if I can live that long or not". :'(

 

It is just depressing to know that you can never fulfill their dreams... but of course, I know very well that my parents are very simple people. They've never requested extraordinary things from me before. When I brought them to Taiwan last year, they were so satisfied and happier than I could ever imagine... to the extent that my dad loves it so much he said he wanted to migrate there lol. They are that simple and that's what make me so proud of them!

 

Nevertheless, I vow that in the near future, while they are still strong, I will do whatever possible to bring them on more trips! Be it just within Malaysia or other asian countries, I will do it... I guess this is the least I could do for them... 

 

Mum and Dad during Taiwan trip

 

On my part, since none of my siblings can help me financially, I am gonna do whatever I can think of to earn extra income... so some of the things I could think of are:

 

> Doing Uber and GrabCar. Actually I've registered to be a driver since October last year (LOL) but so far, I've not submitted the documents which they requested from me over and over again -__- Procrastination punya pasal zzz...

> I am not a skillful person so there's actually really nothing much I can do in life and that is so sad hahaha! But one thing I'm good at is that I know that I am physically strong... so yours truly will train hard and join as many runs as possible to try to achieve the top spots to win the prize money! LOL! Heyyy I was almooostt there okay! Closest I got to was achieving the 11th position!! I will try harder! Ok don't laugh.

> The next one is not on earning extra income but rather on restricting myself on spending on unnecessary things.. well this is simple right, self-control on spending = excess income = higher savings!

> Work harder at work like duhh... I'm not sure if the equation for this works or not but if it does, work hard = seem to work hard = appreciated = higher bonus!  

> Take up accounting work and do it at home to earn extra income.. so if you have friends or anyone you know looking for someone to do their accounts, please contact Ms. Trina via her email (trinataypf@gmail.com)

> Online business - been thinking about this for many years but no action has been taken before. So maybe I should really start taking this seriously!

 

Well, that's all I can think of for now. Time to be positive and work hard!

Ciao!