18 wonderful days

Well, let's start of this post with a pic of us <3

Pic taken during one of our awesome getaways :)

Will blog about it if I ever rmb :P

Today is kinda great day. Though nothing really interesting happened, I kept myself occupied with work and as usual, making everyone at office laugh. Somehow my colleagues always find the things I said funny even though sometimes it is not meant to be a joke -_- Lol but saying stupid things to make them laugh and even be awarded with a "Best Actress Award" would always cheer up our working environment among us. So guess that's actually a good thing :D

The said "award" -_-

They always claim that I can really act especially whenever I was in front of boss swtt and also when dealing with clients -____-

Or any other times when I wanna korek information from anyone lol!

Anyway, today has been a productive day for me even after coming back home. Jogged a bit justnow and feeling so awesome now! Stopped jogging for quite some time due to exams but surprisingly, I can still do 30 minutes without feeling tired! Aweeeeesome! Gotta really lose those fats all over me so by hook or by crook, I NEED TO FUKING GET RID OF THOSE FATS! Can't wait can't wait to see the slim me again! ^^v

Wish me luck! I need 'em!

And I love my snowman so much!

19 wonderful days

I know I've been posting all emo posts lately. Seriously, what on earth was I thinking man..

Read back edi also wanna puke -_-

I wanna start blogging cheerful things again! Haha I know I always say this and it never happens, but at least lemme tokkok abit ken?

Anyway, it's 19 days more to the official day. Today I'm feeling rather good actually. Probably I'm too occupied with work and many other stuff to settle before this coming weekend ^^ Gotta get done with my looong to-do list eh!

Some random facts/ thoughts:

1. I've gained weight!! No I AM SERIOUS! I have flabby arms, FAT thighs, super huge tummy I SWEAR TO GOD I AM NOT LYING!

2. I have classes from 8am-6pm during weekends now.
Classes + Lack of rest + lack of exercise = Good knowledge x (Fat + Ugly skin)

3. I love to work after Mondays or sometimes Tuesdays.

4. I wanna get a puppy! Wrrooofff!

5. Colleague said that my boobs are bigger today.

That's all ciaoz!

20 wonderful days

I knew this day will come one day but I didn't know it will come this fast. Just in a blink of an eye, it's been 2 years. Exactly 20 days more I won't be able to see him during the weekends after weekends again... and there won't be anything for me to look forward to anymore during the weekends. As much as I want him to do something more useful and meaningful in life, and to put his great mind to good use, I still can't accept the fact that I won't be seeing him for God knows how long. But yet, like what I told everyone, all I need is time. I believe I will be able to get back on track and live like a normal person after a reasonable time...

Been constantly telling myself that everything will be alright, everything will be fine. I know I will somehow pass through this tough stage and years later, we will get back together with an even stronger relationship and love for each other. To pass through the beginning tough stage will not be easy for sure and all I can hope for is for me to stay strong! I am positive about this...or rather, just trying to be an optimist. Whatever it will be, I know I've been loved and being loved by someone I love and will always love, my fatty.

The future, the long long path to the future, where we can venture into...

  ...awaiting us

Eyes on me

New song on loop =D



Loving it so much!!

Thanks my love for introducing all these beautiful songs/musics!

Long gone are the days filled with joy and laughter of the Snowman

Dear snowman,

You know you belong there and you are more useful than how others see you. I just wanna let you know that no matter what anyone says to you, or try to bring you down, you should stay strong and hold on to your dreams. I know how it will be when you leave this place, how I will feel, but I know I can live on... it will suck badly but all I want is for you to chase your dreams and grab every opportunities that come your way.

Many people asked me the exact same question when I told them of your plan - "Then how about you?" they asked.

I answered the exact same thing to everybody, "I'll stay on and life goes on as usual...and for him, he'll do the things he's ever wanted to do in his life but never had the chance to"

"Do you think it will work?", some proceeded with this question.

"We'll try", I answered.

Few months back, I got into a conversation with mum on this.

Mum asked "You're not afraid that he'd change?"

"I trust him", I replied.

Mum and I never really spoken about our problems to each other ever since many years back. I still remember very clearly that we'd always lie on bed at night and talked for hours before both of us dozed off...like almost every night. I can't remember when this stopped but I kinda miss doing that sometimes. I could talk about anything in the world with her and she would also do that.

After so many years, one day, I took the courage to speak to her and tell her my thoughts once I got into a new relationship with the snowman, just like how I used to tell her stuff. She listened. And nodded. She respects my decisions, then and now.

Telling her "I trust him" in that very exact words...it puts so much weight to the sentence that every time if anything happens, I want to remind everybody including my parents and friends and snowman that I really trust him in every way possible. Be it in work stuff or relationship. I believe in him.

Snowman, if you want to know, you've changed my life entirely and I am so ever grateful. I might not be capable of doing the same but what I can do is to just love you unconditionally and by giving you all my support on everything you choose to do.

So please remember, no one understands you better than yourself. Be selfish sometimes and do what you want now, no longer what you should.

Loving you as always,
Me

Old or growing up?

Annnndddd hello bloggy! I'm a student again! =D Going back to study is actually kinda awesome! But I've only attended the first class todaylar lol so who knows by the third class I'd be lazy already -_- So for the coming at least 2.5 years, I will be a busy old woman pursuing her career and education in hope of getting better qualifications to be with her Barney! :D

To be honest, the one thing that I regret most is of course, everyone knows that, not studying hard during my uni time :( I didn't know the importance of the knowledge that we were taught and no idea on how important it was for me to score really good in exams. To think back of the silly choices I made last time, it makes me feel so stupid and hopeless for not thinking properly :( Sigh I'm old now and I can't turn back the time anymore :(

But I guess it's still not too late ;)

Knocking senses into this rock-hard head of mine ain't easy. But he managed to do it. He made me realised that education is very important and for anything in the world, I thank God that I knew him before I graduated from uni. He had definitely helped me a lot in increasing my CGPA towards the final year of my degree. Without his constant sarcastic remarks, his superb advices and him being a role model, I don't think I'd even bother to try to gain a better CGPA. I'm really glad that we met and I've improved :)

Knowing how huge of a gap in terms of knowledge, mentality, intelligence, background, and basically everything else between Sim and I, I've decided to continue with my studies and try to improve myself in every way possible (maybe besides cooking :S ). If I don't, we would grow apart further....and further. I've always ignored the saying that goes "suffer now and enjoy later", which I used to only think that it's not worth it to suffer now when you don't even know what the future will be like =S But now, I've prepared to endure any shit in the world to achieve what I want! I don't mind attending classes alone, I don't mind skipping things I love to do just to commit myself in my studies, I don't mind I can't see you for the next few years, I don't mind that I can't go back to see my parents that often, I don't mind for having to wake up early almost every single day now... everything I do is for myself and for us.

I may one day look back and regret again for the decisions I've made but I have faith that this will not be it.

Irrelevant to the post.
Just love to see him smile :)

In a relationship

Happy 2012 peeps!!

Nothing new or special to me actually coz to me, it's just another day =S
But being a human, you gotta celebrate it too because it's a.....well, a new year. A post on that later =)

So for now, it's about us back in August 2011 =_____=

But before that, I'd like to share something here. Sim sent me a youtube link the other day. It's regarding the stages in a relationship that I believe most of the couples have to go through. Here it is, post it here for future reference heee...



After watching it, I personally think that it is kinda true and it somehow shows in most of the couples I know. Well to summarise them, there are 7 stages. Stage 1-Meeting: Well, stranger meet stranger, became friends, and continue to be friends. Stage 2-Chase: They say it's the best part in a relationship. I'm not sure about guys, but I believe girls love this. You know that kinda feeling when you're so unsure about that person, you wanna find out more about that guy, you hang out together but knowing that you have crush on each other but none wanna speak out first because they just enjoy every moment of the companion and chats, when you are together everything you talk or think or do is so...erm how do I put this, it's like I-don't-care-about-the-random-people-around-us-or-anything-in-the-world,-I-just-want-to-spend-the-day-with-you that kinda thing and it's like everyday there's something to look forward to. Of course that's awesome but people, these kinda things won't last forever for most of the couples. Stage 3-Honeymoon: Yeah honeymoon! You're now officially a couple and you get to do what other couples normally do. Just spending time together, getting to know each other's family and friends, love each other more each day - basically, you're on cloud nine everyday. Then come Stage 4-Comfortable: Most couples I know are on this stage ehh. This is when, according to the narrator, "you can truly be yourself" stage. You know, you just couldn't be bothered on the way you eat, sleep, sit, talk, laugh, or whatever you do because both of you are already so used to it. There's nothing to be embarrassed about anymore. So this is actually one of the crucial stage where you and your partner gotta maintain the relationship and not "take each for granted" says the video and you'll end up happily, else, you'll be on a bumpy ride heading to the next stage, Stage 5-Tolerance: This is when your feelings for him/her are not as much as before (to put it in a nicer way) and when couples argue most of the days over the smallest thing, everyone gets upset over each other, both couldn't compromise, etc. It's bad yeah. Stage 6-Downhill = On the way to breaking up. Endless arguments until one stops trying. Stage 7-Breaking up: The end.

I don't think there's any couple in the world that has the perfect fantasy-like kind of relationship and hence here I am admitting that although Sim & I do have our unhappy moments, but so far, we never had any serious arguments before and I am truly glad for that! He is one of the most understanding person I can ever think of! =) Thank you dear :) So yeah, that's that. Happy trying to every couple!

Annnddd....back to August 2011. One week after my birthday surprises and all...back to a normal day, just like any other day. Only difference is, my days are always a happier one when Sim is around because we both love to eat and he's always bringing me to awesome places to eat awesome food with awesome-must-have alcoholic drinks! Lol.

Actually there's nothing really I wanna blog, just pictures of our dinner =_=

Our favourite shrimps!
I think besides their shrimps, there's no other food on the menu that is great =S

Hmmm...
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My memory fails me. I cant remember how it tasted :/

Trying to relate this post to the youtube video above, I think Sim & I are on Stage 4 - Comfortable. Actually don't need to think, it memang is -_- To prove that we're not a boring couple where they normally eat and go home and do own stuff after that (if you do this every time for the next 2 years, then congrats! You're on your way to Stage 5 -.-), we went for a short walk! Lol so not "boring" -_- But heyy, at least we held each other's hand and talked our hearts out and just talked stupid things! These are the things that would keep a relationship going. Oh ya so we talked and walked and he got thirsty so we ended up at Sunway Resort Hotel's bar...lol.

Veryy beautiful place.

The only thing we can afford here...a glass of long island ice tea lol.
Comes with complimentary snacks lol2.

Look at the comfy seats. I think we can chill here the wholeeee day!


Us at our own moments, no disturbance.

Being in a relationship isn't a bad thing at all like how some forever alone people would make it sound like it's a terrible thing. I don't blame them, maybe they just haven't found the right one. I honestly love a companion, I love how I'm being loved and cared for, I love the fact that I have someone to talk to, I love everything about being in a relationship... And thing I love most about this relationship of mine, he respects me and gives me the freedom and privacy of my own. He trusts me and believes in me. And most importantly, he truly loves me. Me towards him? More than anything :)